I'm exhausted. Too shot to drive to my moms.........so I'm taking a time out, going to have something to eat, then head over to her place later this evening when I've calmed down.

We've been in meltdown mode since yesterday.........crisis mode all week (which is a step or two just before a total meltdown).

Thought this AM was going to go OK, but nope........I was so wrong. Kiddos mom came to pick him up for a 3 day visit and on his way out, started to hit & swear like a street fighter. I get a break until Wed noon. It will take me all of that to recover. Todays event was the first time he had done this in front of the other 2 guys.......they were great, followed directions and stayed in their rooms when I needed them to. But, they were scared.

I'm so glad we're not going to have to go through this too many more times before this little guy finds his new abode. I'm just hoping the new place is set up for dealing with this out of control kid, not just the cute little guy that will be coming to visit them on Tues.

Having no money would be preferable to continuing on this same road. I'll manage retiring just fine, this week has been a horrid reminder of why I need to quit. I do wish it wouldn't have been with quite such a show of fireworks however. A simple good bye and thanks so much would have sufficed.

I don't envy the bio mom today. She had him in her car, screaming and biting........and had a couple hour drive ahead of her!

There is a nap in my immeadiate future, then 3 days at my moms. Hoping to be a normal person again one of these days.